If it's supposed to be this beautiful..
Monday, June 21, 2010
3 weeks have passed since the day I was waiting for. I can't express how happy I felt on that day even though there were some hiccups here and there. I know it's just an engagement but it almost seemed surreal to be in that spot. And when his Grandmother put in the ring and kissed my forehead, I felt tears welled up in my eyes. I never felt grateful that I was able to experience it all.
Some asked me how it felt like being a fiancee and usually I will answer, "Oh nothing different."
But it is different. I can't really describe how different, but the way I feel now is different. This step I'm taking, it might be unneccessary. But it's a step that makes me see my goals and future clearer. It's almost like being in junior college. You enter in order to create an easier path for your dreams of going to a university come true (Even though mine was twarted.. Haha! Still got there eventually Alhamduillah!). Being engaged is about the same thing. It might not make an easier path for me, but at least I see myself taking a step towards the future that I want to have. I love being his girlfriend and now I love being his fiancee and I CAN'T WAIT to be his wife! Hehe.. Gatal eh.. Opps!
So basically, being engaged doesn't change the fact that I'm still not married, but it changes the way I feel towards him and our relationship. Come what may, I pray that we will be together now and of course in the afterlife, holding each other through our ups and downs. =)
I love u very much Muhd Sadik!
PS: Thank you to all my lovely friends for helping me out, coming and supporting me throughout this process. Couldn't have done this without all of you! I love all of you too! Well, time to rest before having to help me again the end of next year! Muacks! =D
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